and i just wish my insecurities, didn't have to hurt him aswell.
doesnt everyone believe in love?
even the cynical ones want someone to love them,
even if they deny it
its been a year,
filled with problems.
but now you're here,
almost as if to solve them
and i can't live in a world without you now.
all my life,
ive been searching for you
how did I survive,
in this world before you
cause i dont wanna live another day without you now.
this is the best thing,
the best thing that could be happening
and i think you would agree
the best thing is that its
happening to you and me.
all im gonna have,
is all that you can give me.
and i'll give right back,
everything i have in me
cause nothing ever felt as right
as this does right now.
i'll go back to before we met,
try and erase the past,
try harder to forget cause
nothing will ever be as good as here and now.
cause when i looked into your eyes
and you dared to stare right back,
you should've said "nice to meet you, im your other half"
and this is the best thing,
the best thing that could be happening.
and i think you would agree,
the best thing is that its happening,
happening to you and me
i'd find someone
i never dreamt
it'd be like this
all that i've hoped for (and ever wished)
and i'm tryin',
with all my heart and mind
to make your life
as good as you've made mine.
well my new years eve was pretty interesting..
my house got abit trashed,
but there's nothing better than bringing the new year in with some of you best friends is there? (:
he's the chuck bass to my blair waldorf (L)
'well, you know its love when you start talking like an assasin'
ohhh, recently ive started watching friday night lights- tbf it was ony because of my insane love of the floppy-haired taylor kitsch- but im starting to get rather addicted.
guess thats another to add to my list with gossip girl and veronica mars <3
soooo, i spent my saturday afternoon with my best oneeeee (L)
took some photos, +made a snowman with our recent bucketload of snow:)
i actually adore her quite alot,peaceout!
- Tags:bella, best friends, chuck bass, friday night lights, gossip girl, new years eve, parties, ryan, snow, taylor kitsch, veronica mars
- Music:justin bieber- one time.
, guess who's back ?
after FOUR WHOLE MONTHS
i have decided to come back with my live-journaling ways, bet you all missed my mindless ramblings havent you..
so big things in my life right now;
+ i have two of the most amazing best friends at my side right now, my muskateers (LLL)
+ my laaavely other half of (technically) a few months, but a few amazing ones at that (:
ryannnnnnn, my ridiculously tall, sleep-deprived idiot (LL)
but besides from that, life is the usual- made a few enemies, been to some amazinggg parties and met some awesome people :)
oh ooh, minor's new album- can i say ive fallen in love with them all over again?
shiver is pretty much one of the best songs ive heard in a while,
it actually gives me goosebumps.
anywayys, im feeling abit of a re-cap post in photos inabit,
so look out for that ;)
i apologize for not posting for so long, but life seems to be needing my full attention recently and i havent had the chance to even think about writing about it.
but im back now, hopefully for a while at least (:
now the reason ive decided to post tonight.
i dont think anybody will ever understand how much we have been through.
it sounds clique, but we have both fought so hard to get to where we are.
harder than most people will ever bother to imagine, because i was determined to never give up + she was determined to right everything she did wrong.
and it was hard, and people thought i was stupid and just being stubborn.
but at the end of the day, every little piece of pain was worth how we've turned out.
all the jealous friends, the back-stabbing bitches and malicious rumours
turns out nothing is going to stop her being my best friend
and i dont really think anything ever will.
we're complete idiots when we're together.
we spend majority of our time checking out guys.
we like to get drunk together, and i dont enjoy parties without her.
she brings out the worst in me, and i do the same to her.
i tell her everything and anything.
and she understands how im feeling all
the time, it would be scary if it wasnt so awesome.
because drunk-nuzzles are our thing (;
- Music:boys boys boys - lady gaga.
its a shame that it had to be this way
its not enough to say im sorry.
maybe im to blame
or maybe we're the same
but either way i can't breathe
either way i can't breathe
im alive but im losing all my drive
cuz everything we've been through
and everything about you
seemed to be a lie
a guiltless, twisted lie
it made me learn to hate you
or hate myself for letting it pass by
all i had to say is goodbye
we're better off this way
tell me I was wrong
i know how much this is my fault.
i took you for granted; i never treated you right.
and its so clique that it took all this to make me realise how i feel about you.
about you and me.
sorry has never sounded so weak.
apologies have never had such a little impact.
but hold your breath
because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
don’t make me change my mind
or I won’t live to see another day
i swear its true
because a guy like you is impossible to find.
im going to regret everything ive done
were you just kidding?
cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
we almost never speak
i dont feel welcome anymore
and then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
everything is wrong;
cause it rains when youre here, and it rains when youre gone.
i very much need to change my layout, im thinking something either milo related or a bit of chuck bass (; speaking of which i nearly got an after-school today.. the reason being.. well lets just say my spanish teacher does not appreciate my need for a bit of chuck bass..
right now im watching series 2 of gossip girl again, but dan is with me so he is basically trying to distract me [ by throwing popcorn and trying to eat the sushi he so lovingly bought me ] and also trying to do a write-up thing of the macbeth performance from the other day; sometimes i think drama is really not worth all the play criticisms we have to do...
anyway im reading this really great book called, 'a bad boy can be good for a girl'. which tbh is very fitting do you not think? all my friends have been spazzing out on me about how the way i find bad boys attractive is going to get me hurt; which i suppose is true but.. its not as if i have much control over who i fall for is it?
is it wrong to be in love with the devil?
favourite scene muchh?
im now off for a popcorn fight with dan and to basically relax before the forthcoming extremely stressful week of GCSE's....
- Tags:bad boy, chuck bass, dan, devil, drama, ed westwick, gcse, gossip girl, layout, lyrics, macbeth, milo ventimiglia, popcorn, spanish, sushi, taylor swift
- Location:with dan
- Music:taylor swift- shouldve said no